I Wonder If...

   I wonder if I'll ever have someone look at me the way I looked at you.
   I wonder if anyone will think about me all the time, because they can't get me out of their head.
   I wonder if I'll ever have somebody who will love me the way I thought I loved you.
   I wonder if I'll find someone who will love me the way I deserve.

The Hardest Battle

It's a weird feeling when you hope and dream about something that you think is impossible and then suddenly your daydreams become a reality.
   One day you wake up, and it's as if everything gets flipped, like you've just walked into a parallel universe. You have the same family, the same friends, the same life. But it feels different. You can't figure out what, but there's something.
   Then out of the blue you're told a secret or you find out something that makes you feel as if time has frozen. You're confused, your feelings are a mess inside of you.
   It's like trying to piece together an impossible puzzle. You know that there must be a way to complete the picture. But you can't. With every step forward you take two steps back.
   It's a battle between the logical reasons in your head and the uncontrollable feelings in your heart. And that's the hardest battle to fight.

Just be You!

So the past few months have been a bit of a roller coaster for me. There's been good things and bad things, but as they say everything that you go through shapes you as a person, and I'm teaching myself to embrace that. 

To be completely honest I love who I am, I've found a new lease of confidence and I'm loving every minute of it. I don't know if it's because I've been focused on being healthier, or if it's because I'm finally wearing the clothes I want to wear and doing what I want to do without caring what others think. Either way I've decided that I'm not going to let anyone change MY thoughts and opinions, or make me doubt the things and people I LOVE. 

At the end of the day it's my LIFE and nobody else's, I hope this inspires you to believe in yourself, let go of your insecurities and just be YOU! Everyone has there flaws, but there no need to be ashamed of them or to try and change yourself for others. 

So here's to not giving a FUCK!!!

Love Alice x